Friday, 7 January 2011

Wherein I Lose My Shit

Friday, 7 January 2011
Okay, okay. I’ll admit it: the last 24 hours in my mammying career have most certainly not been a shining example of my finest parenting hour.

What has happened to my always-cooperative-low-maintenance baby? Who is this screeching demon in his place?

Man, have we ever struggled this week.

I blame Christmas. And Christmas chocolate. And Christmas holidays and lack of nursery and its blessed routine. Because this angel-faced child that used to go to bed at 6pm every night like clockwork has been replaced (snatched by baby-cloning alien teleport?) by a caterwauling harpy.

Jude listens to a CD of lullabies while he goes to sleep – but before we turn in for the night we unplug the CD player – obviously – for fear of the whole thing overheating and setting the house on fire. On Wednesday night, I went in at about 10.30 and unplugged it, as usual. Half an hour later, the wire – which I’d left resting on the top of the chest of drawers – somehow (ghosts?) fell off and behind the drawers, resulting in a horrendous
CLATTERCLATTERCLATTERBANG!
which woke up the baby.

What followed next could only be described (in the words of the inimitable George Banks, Esq.) as an unseemly hullabaloo.

Having gone to bed (with a minimum of fuss, it has to be said) at 6 o’clock, after an initial extended version freak-out screeching berserk-o-rama having been frightened by the
CLATTERCLATTERCLATTERBANG!
he was all, “Hey! I’ve just slept for 5 hours! I’m feeling so refreshed!"

"I’m up, LET’S ALL GET UP!”

Oh, yes he did.

For the next four-and-a-half hours, we seesawed between putting him in our bed between us hoping he’d drop off (read: crawling on our heads, pulling our hair, wriggling, squirming, trying to escape) and putting him in his cot to let him cry it out (AKA is that our child or a WWII air-raid siren?)

But actually... what is funny about this whole series of events is not that they actually occurred, but how quickly I LOST MY SHIT having to deal with it. Honestly… I felt so completely wretched for the whole night, I couldn’t deal with any of it. Poor Jason had to deal with a blaring baby and a nutcase wife. What happened to the superwoman who woke up 687 times a night to clamp the aforementioned offspring off her boobs?  Dare I mention cracked nipples?  Seriously?  I thought I was made of sterner stuff than this, but behold the evidence: a Twitter account of my nocturnal breakdown:

First, I’m just stating the facts:


 




Now I’m all about the self-pity:





Oh, great!  Whining, anyone?




 

More whining:






Aaah, but now, enter whining-related GUILT:






Desperation:



 
Self-loathing:




 

But not quite self-loathing enough:






SHUT UP ALREADY:






Eventually, he ran out of steam at 4:30am after I stroked his head for about half an hour.


I’m totally mortified exhausted just re-reading it!

Anyway – Jase and I both had to take the following day off work. I knew work wasn’t a goer when I got out of bed after my 30 second sleep and wibble-wobbled my way down the landing toward the bathroom… yay vertigo!

(All hail big-hearted and sympathetic employers whose understanding was invoked by early morning phone calls from gravely voiced verge-of-tears employees, resulting in the granting of emergency last minute leave.)

Be all that as it may; we slept a glorious ten hours the following night and I am happy to report that all is once again right with the world.  Isn't it funny (no, I'm not quite laughing yet, either) how your perspective-o-meter goes all skewiff all because of the lack of a little shut-eye? 

Now, where did I put that corkscrew...?

Happy New Year, folks.  :-)



3 people had something to say about this...:

Lis said...

Did you say 6pm? That your, less than 2 year old child, goes to bed at 6pm? You lost all my sympathy right after that comment. :)
6pm...... my child is up until 10pm and then after half an hour of chasing him back to bed, he still winds up in our bed at 2am to kick me in the back every night... 6pm!
That was my self pity... lol. Loved the post.

Mammy P said...

Well, he doesn't sleep at all during the day anymore... but I wouldn't trade places with you! I think I will keep the sides on his cot until he's 8 or 9. :-)

Lynn said...

"Unseemly hullabaloo" is awesome. I am totally working that into my day to day conversation. Along with the many, many other Mary Poppins quotes that already live there.

It's odd how hard it is to go backwards, isn't it? When the kids were babies, it wasn't easy but somehow we managed to get up five times a night and survive a day of caring for other kids on 4 hours of broken sleep. Yet now, if any one of the kids gets up in the night for even five minutes, I'm a) a total bitch to everyone involved, and b) a complete wreck the next day.

New mothers have my complete sympathy!